Well, I am beginning my 9th week. My first OB appointment is December 12th so I am trying to remain calm and patient. Today has been a wonderful day which causes me concern (I know I need to stop worrying). As I stood in front of the mirror this morning looking down at my non-existent baby bump and/or bloat I began wondering if there was in fact a baby in there? Shouldn't I be feeling something? So, in an attempt to make myself feel better, I am writing down a list of all things I have experienced in the last two weeks to remind myself that I am in fact pregnant. That the baby didn't just disappear from my stomach overnight.
1. Burping- Yes, I understand it is disgusting and my poor office mate probably wishes she worked next to somebody else every day. Thank God she spends most of the day cursing at her computer which tends to override the majority of my unflattering burps.
2. Nausea- Overall it has not been too bad. When it is, I find myself running to the bathroom almost excited. "Yeah! I threw up today! I feel like a normal pregnant lady." It is almost as if it is a victory for me and I am able to relax for a couple of hours.
3. Nighttime bathroom trips- I find myself making at least two to three trips to the bathroom every night. I honestly don't mind...my poor dog on the other hand appears sleep deprived. If only he could speak my language then I would say "Suck it up furbaby, it only gets worse!" My husband is lucky, he has been out in California for the past two weeks. He is in for a rude awakening when he gets home tomorrow night.
4. Emotional- I found myself bawling through two episodes of "One Born Every Minute". I don't mean tears trickling down my cheeks...I mean full on crying. Next up...I found myself crying through an episode of the "Millionaire Matchmaker". Really? Come on, that show isn't even sad. What the hell is wrong with me?
5. Exhaustion- I can not seem to get enough sleep. I find myself forcing my eyes to stay open around 1 pm everyday. Hence why I am writing my blog right now...to avoid taking a nap. I am not going to lie, there have been at least two occasions where I locked myself in the "nursing station" in the bathroom of my work to take a power nap. So wrong.
Hmmm...after looking over the above listed items I am not sure if this blog is making me feel better. As I said before I don't feel much of anything today. I mean, I feel as if I could run a marathon today...okay maybe half marathon...oh, who am I kidding! I am lazy as hell right now! I am just going to go back to the kitchen, eat some more chocolate, and worry some more.
You can rent hospital grade dopplers. There's mixed opinions out there on excessive use, but for those days when you need to set your mind at ease it may be worth looking into. Really easy to use and such a cool sound! (http://www.bellybeats.com/) Soon enough you'll feel enough kicking to where you won't need it :)
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