I have never been so thrilled to go back to work. I must admit that I have just had too much time on my hands to analyze everything. It is nice to be busy and "back to normal". The pain and bloating are finally gone and I still had some trouble buttoning my pants this morning.
So nothing to really report here. Hopefully little Thor is hanging on tight. Yes, that is right...hubs has named my blastocyst Thor. Now let me explain. While I was on bedrest, the movie "Thor" happened to be one of the movies we watched. I was pretty down yesterday, because overall I am not much of the optimist. While I laid on the couch being pathetic and feeling sorry for myself worrying that IVF #1 did not work, hubs was trying everything to get me to laugh. He kept referencing the movie Thor and said "lets just hope little Thor is hammering away at your uterus eating up your lining". I had to explain to him that I hope our little blastocyst, or Thor as he calls it, is not eating my uterus because if I don't have a uterus, then Thor would not be able to survive. Also, I don't remember Thor eating anything in the movie, but whatever. Anyhoo...his absolutely ridiculous comment did make me laugh. So Thor it is.
So now that everyone probably thinks we are a bunch of crazies, I am going to sign off by wishing all the ladies who are either in your 2WW or currently going through the IVF process lots of luck!
Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
Monday, October 31, 2011
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Thursday, October 27, 2011
The Mixed Emotions of Transfer Day
I was already very apprehensive the night before our transfer for several reasons. Once the embryologist decides to take you to a day 5 transfer (which is what we did), you do not receive any information regarding your embryos until the morning of your transfer. So, we didn't know the quality, grade, or how many blastocysts we had until Wednesday morning. I was so nervous...what if we did not have any embryos or blasts to transfer?
Of course we arrived super early to the clinic because I am the most impatient person ever. Also, I started drinking water WAY to early. I was in so much pain by the time the embryologist came in to give us our results that I was more worried about peeing myself than what he had to say. I was literally sitting down with my legs crossed holding my crotch when we talked with our embryologist. To make matters worse, we were told we only had 2 blastocysts. One was a 4BB (average/fair) and the other was a 4BC (eh not the best). They recommended we place both in. I on the otherhand, being somewhat distracted by my bladder that was ready to explode, decided that we would only put one in if we had some to freeze. The embryologist said we still had 8 embryos that they were taking out to day 6 to see if they could freeze them. He also said we would have a 50% chance putting one grade 4BB embryo in. So one it was. To be honest, I actually want twins but because I have five large ass fibroids, there wouldn't be much room for two, and it could be dangerous.
I then popped my valium and after a couple of minutes I found myself blabbing to the nurse who escorted me to the restroom that I felt great and that this is better than being stoned...blah blah blah (and no I do not smoke pot). Someone should have put duct tape over my mouth. I have no business being around people while on narcotics.
After the transfer, I rested several hours at home. Being the nutcase I am, I decided to Dr.Google anything and everything about blastocyst grades. I ended up bawling (which is typical of me these days) realizing that my embryos were not the best quality. One doctor even stated there is only a 17-20% chance of pregnancy with a 4BB. Great...we should have put two in.
Today we got the final fertilization report. They were able to freeze 2-4BB blasts, 2-3BB blasts, and 1-4BC blasts. So five total totsicles which is pretty good. Seriously though...what the fuck. Out of 17 eggs I did not get one high grade embryo or blasts. Don't get me wrong, I am extremely grateful that we have "BB" as we call the little guy/girl in my uterus now. I am also thankful we have 5 frozen blasts, but I do feel some disappointment in the quality. I realize most women do not even get blastocysts or any to freeze, so I know some of you reading my blog may want to slap me. And I am sorry....I am grateful.
Of course we arrived super early to the clinic because I am the most impatient person ever. Also, I started drinking water WAY to early. I was in so much pain by the time the embryologist came in to give us our results that I was more worried about peeing myself than what he had to say. I was literally sitting down with my legs crossed holding my crotch when we talked with our embryologist. To make matters worse, we were told we only had 2 blastocysts. One was a 4BB (average/fair) and the other was a 4BC (eh not the best). They recommended we place both in. I on the otherhand, being somewhat distracted by my bladder that was ready to explode, decided that we would only put one in if we had some to freeze. The embryologist said we still had 8 embryos that they were taking out to day 6 to see if they could freeze them. He also said we would have a 50% chance putting one grade 4BB embryo in. So one it was. To be honest, I actually want twins but because I have five large ass fibroids, there wouldn't be much room for two, and it could be dangerous.
I then popped my valium and after a couple of minutes I found myself blabbing to the nurse who escorted me to the restroom that I felt great and that this is better than being stoned...blah blah blah (and no I do not smoke pot). Someone should have put duct tape over my mouth. I have no business being around people while on narcotics.
After the transfer, I rested several hours at home. Being the nutcase I am, I decided to Dr.Google anything and everything about blastocyst grades. I ended up bawling (which is typical of me these days) realizing that my embryos were not the best quality. One doctor even stated there is only a 17-20% chance of pregnancy with a 4BB. Great...we should have put two in.
Today we got the final fertilization report. They were able to freeze 2-4BB blasts, 2-3BB blasts, and 1-4BC blasts. So five total totsicles which is pretty good. Seriously though...what the fuck. Out of 17 eggs I did not get one high grade embryo or blasts. Don't get me wrong, I am extremely grateful that we have "BB" as we call the little guy/girl in my uterus now. I am also thankful we have 5 frozen blasts, but I do feel some disappointment in the quality. I realize most women do not even get blastocysts or any to freeze, so I know some of you reading my blog may want to slap me. And I am sorry....I am grateful.
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Retrieval
Yesterday we finally had our retrieval! After arriving at the clinic around 11 a.m., I was having my procedure by 12:15. The only thing I remember was my RE smiling at me asking me if I was ready. I told him that I was nervous and he grabbed my hand, squeezed it, and he held onto it until I was knocked out.
The minute I woke up the nurse told us that they got a lot. 17 eggs to be exact. I was so relieved, but I also know that there is no telling how many we will be left with after 5 days.
Once home I just rested and began chugging Gatorade. Around 7 p.m. I was having awful shooting pains...pain so bad that it was hard to breathe. I was also extremely nauseous and could not go to the restroom at all despite the fact that I had finished off four bottles of Gatorade. The nurses had warned me ahead of time that I would have to be careful because I had so many follicles (24 follicles) that were aspirated and my E2 levels were so high, therefore, I was at a high risk of OHSS. After having a mini breakdown I forced down some pretzels, drank a huge bottle of pedialyte, swallowed some pain pills, and hubs put me to bed. Seven trips to the bathroom later and with the sun rising...I was finally able to get some sleep.
I am feeling much better today. The nurse called and out of the 17 eggs, 12 fertilized, and out of those 12 eleven are left. We will get another update tomorrow regarding the quality of the embryos and whether we will be going in for a day 3 or 5 transfer. The nurse is thinking probably a day 5.
Thank you all so much for the support. I have received so many text messages, emails, and phone calls that I have been overwhelmed. It has taken this experience for me to realize who my true friends are, and I could not be happier at this moment...one day at a time. My family and husband have also been incredibly amazing...and I realize how lucky I really am despite what I have gone through thus far. Thanks again!
The minute I woke up the nurse told us that they got a lot. 17 eggs to be exact. I was so relieved, but I also know that there is no telling how many we will be left with after 5 days.
Once home I just rested and began chugging Gatorade. Around 7 p.m. I was having awful shooting pains...pain so bad that it was hard to breathe. I was also extremely nauseous and could not go to the restroom at all despite the fact that I had finished off four bottles of Gatorade. The nurses had warned me ahead of time that I would have to be careful because I had so many follicles (24 follicles) that were aspirated and my E2 levels were so high, therefore, I was at a high risk of OHSS. After having a mini breakdown I forced down some pretzels, drank a huge bottle of pedialyte, swallowed some pain pills, and hubs put me to bed. Seven trips to the bathroom later and with the sun rising...I was finally able to get some sleep.
I am feeling much better today. The nurse called and out of the 17 eggs, 12 fertilized, and out of those 12 eleven are left. We will get another update tomorrow regarding the quality of the embryos and whether we will be going in for a day 3 or 5 transfer. The nurse is thinking probably a day 5.
Thank you all so much for the support. I have received so many text messages, emails, and phone calls that I have been overwhelmed. It has taken this experience for me to realize who my true friends are, and I could not be happier at this moment...one day at a time. My family and husband have also been incredibly amazing...and I realize how lucky I really am despite what I have gone through thus far. Thanks again!
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Final Monitoring Appointment
So, I actually had a monitoring appointment on Monday as well, but haven't posted yet because I felt awful Monday. However, I do remember the nurse naming off approximately 14 follies between 19mm and 10mm with estrogen at 1,326. So good... and that is all I cared about....back to sleep I went.
Today my numbers skyrocketed! No wonder why I feel miserable!
Right ovary: 18,16.5,16,14.5,14,10,9 (7 measurable)
Left ovary: 21.5, 21, 19, 17.5, 17.5, 17, 16.5, 16, 16, 15.5, 14.5, 12, 11.5, 9 (14 measurable)
E2: 2,195
LH: 1.5
P4: .60
Since I have so many "tweener" follies I am stimming for one more day. Although, my dose of Gonal F has been reduced to 75iu from 150iu. I don't need to go in for a monitoring appointment because they have already told me I will receive a call tomorrow for instructions to trigger. My retrieval will be Friday. I am so cautious since so many things can go wrong and lets face it...I haven't had the best of luck (but I guess none of us have if we are writing about our infertility on a blog). I went ahead and took Thursday off so that I could just relax and I already scheduled an acupuncture appointment as well. I am so close.....
For those of you who have already been through this process, as your E2 numbers went up did you start to feel dizzy and disorientated? Lord I am just praying that I don't stroke out!
Today my numbers skyrocketed! No wonder why I feel miserable!
Right ovary: 18,16.5,16,14.5,14,10,9 (7 measurable)
Left ovary: 21.5, 21, 19, 17.5, 17.5, 17, 16.5, 16, 16, 15.5, 14.5, 12, 11.5, 9 (14 measurable)
E2: 2,195
LH: 1.5
P4: .60
Since I have so many "tweener" follies I am stimming for one more day. Although, my dose of Gonal F has been reduced to 75iu from 150iu. I don't need to go in for a monitoring appointment because they have already told me I will receive a call tomorrow for instructions to trigger. My retrieval will be Friday. I am so cautious since so many things can go wrong and lets face it...I haven't had the best of luck (but I guess none of us have if we are writing about our infertility on a blog). I went ahead and took Thursday off so that I could just relax and I already scheduled an acupuncture appointment as well. I am so close.....
For those of you who have already been through this process, as your E2 numbers went up did you start to feel dizzy and disorientated? Lord I am just praying that I don't stroke out!
Friday, October 14, 2011
The Ovaries have Taken Off (IVF Report #2)
Today I had yet another monitoring appointment after 5 days of stims. I am fairly happy with the results. Slow and steady has been my mantra.
E2: 405 (tripled in 2 days)
Right Ovary: 5 measurable follies (between 7-12mm)
Left Ovary: 7 measurable follies (between 7-12mm)
There are still ten or so small ones that they believe may still take off which is why they are not increasing my meds. I mean two days ago I only had 4 measurable follies...now I have 12. Hopefully a few more will join the party, but not all.
The plan is to continue on with the 75iu of Menopur and 150 Gonal F for tonight. Tomorrow, I will take the Ganirelex and continue on with the same dose Menopur and Gonal F. My next monitoring appointment is Monday morning. I thought it was weird they are going to let me stim for another 3 days until they see me again, but they seemed pretty confident that nothing would happen over the weekend to change their plan with me.
I am hoping everyone has a great weekend. I will probably be pretty lazy. My little ovaries feel like bowling balls already and I am waddling around like a duck. My coworkers have all been looking at me like I have something stuck up my ass. So to avoid even more embarrassment, I will probably just relax at home. I will update again on Monday.
E2: 405 (tripled in 2 days)
Right Ovary: 5 measurable follies (between 7-12mm)
Left Ovary: 7 measurable follies (between 7-12mm)
There are still ten or so small ones that they believe may still take off which is why they are not increasing my meds. I mean two days ago I only had 4 measurable follies...now I have 12. Hopefully a few more will join the party, but not all.
The plan is to continue on with the 75iu of Menopur and 150 Gonal F for tonight. Tomorrow, I will take the Ganirelex and continue on with the same dose Menopur and Gonal F. My next monitoring appointment is Monday morning. I thought it was weird they are going to let me stim for another 3 days until they see me again, but they seemed pretty confident that nothing would happen over the weekend to change their plan with me.
I am hoping everyone has a great weekend. I will probably be pretty lazy. My little ovaries feel like bowling balls already and I am waddling around like a duck. My coworkers have all been looking at me like I have something stuck up my ass. So to avoid even more embarrassment, I will probably just relax at home. I will update again on Monday.
Thursday, October 13, 2011
1st IVF Report
Well...I am very much into my first IVF cycle. I am excited, apprehensive, worried, nervous, and anxious. I also had my first monitoring appointment:
After 3 days on stims:
E2: 139
Left Ovary: 3 measurable follies
Right Ovary: 1 measurable folly
There are 15 smaller follies that we are waiting to catch up
I am to continue taking 75iu Menopur and 150 Gonal F. I must also mention the shots and mixing of the shots are super easy now :) My next monitoring appointment is Friday morning after 5 days of stims. I also need to ask what they consider a measurable follicle. I know what is considered "measurable" varies between doctors.
I am feeling okay thus far. As of today (after 4 days of stims), I have had continuous cramping...it almost feels like someone is pinching my insides. I have officially retired from the treadmill, and exercise will consist of walking the furbaby. I also feel quite light headed and foggy. I hate taking meds so I can't wait for this to be over. I will check in after my 2nd monitoring report.
After 3 days on stims:
E2: 139
Left Ovary: 3 measurable follies
Right Ovary: 1 measurable folly
There are 15 smaller follies that we are waiting to catch up
I am to continue taking 75iu Menopur and 150 Gonal F. I must also mention the shots and mixing of the shots are super easy now :) My next monitoring appointment is Friday morning after 5 days of stims. I also need to ask what they consider a measurable follicle. I know what is considered "measurable" varies between doctors.
I am feeling okay thus far. As of today (after 4 days of stims), I have had continuous cramping...it almost feels like someone is pinching my insides. I have officially retired from the treadmill, and exercise will consist of walking the furbaby. I also feel quite light headed and foggy. I hate taking meds so I can't wait for this to be over. I will check in after my 2nd monitoring report.
Monday, October 10, 2011
Let the Fun Begin
After some unwanted friend drama for which I am still not over (you could probably get a hint from my previous blog post), I decided that I was going to use this weekend to spoil myself before I am cranky, sore, uncomfortable, and whiny. Friday I went out with a couple of friends (don't worry I only had one drink). Saturday and Sunday I went to the gym, I shopped, I spent most of the day practicing with my DSLR camera, I dined out with hubs, I baked, and I even carved a pumpkin. I was productive but also made time for me. It was great!
The real fun started Sunday night, my first night of stims. It took about thirty minutes for the hubs and I to figure out how to mix the the medication (using a Q-Cap to mix and draw up the medication and then switching over to a 27 mm needle made all the difference). After the medication was finally mixed, I pinched my tummy and handed the needle over to hubs to his surprise. He looked at me like a deer in headlights! Apparently he missed the memo that I was going to make HIM give me the shots. After the shot I was examining the contents of the syringe and noticed hubs didn't inject it all! He grabbed the syringe from me to prove that he did in fact inject all the medication and ended up shooting a bunch of medicine all over our bathroom. Ugh....oh well most of it got in me. It was more comical than anything because hubs was freaking out. He was still apologizing this morning thinking that this was drastically going to alter how my ovaries respond :) All in all he did a wonderful job and only a tiny bruise was left as evidence. This is just going to keep getting more fun as we add more/different medications as we go along.
I also created a checklist of things I have completed and still need to complete in preparation for IVF:
Completed:
1. Apply for FMLA so that I don't get fired.
2. Schedule a second nurse consult
3. Sign consents
4. Organize all of the medication & check that I received everything.
5. Send insurance a letter of certification (even though it is not needed since I have met all requirements)
6. Provide a frozen sample to RE just in case
7. Buy lots of G2 and pedialyte
8. Cook meals ahead of time and freeze (lasagna and beef & potato stew)
Still need to complete:
1. Spreadsheet listing out all medication I am supposed to take and when (this was an idea recommended by a friend who has gone through this)
2. Follow up with HR to make sure FMLA paperwork is completed by my doctor
3. List of movies I want hubs to pick up for me for days after retrieval and transfer
4. Pick up a couple of books (anyone have any ideas?)
5. Schedule acupuncture appointments
I am sure I am missing some things but I will just wing it when the time is near. I mean I have had so many surgeries and procedures in the last year and half that hopefully this will all be a piece of cake....except I am going to be a nervous wreck!!! Again, thank you all for your continued support! It means everything to me.
I took a picture picture of all of my meds.... believe it or not this does not include the meds that I have organized already in my bathroom.
The real fun started Sunday night, my first night of stims. It took about thirty minutes for the hubs and I to figure out how to mix the the medication (using a Q-Cap to mix and draw up the medication and then switching over to a 27 mm needle made all the difference). After the medication was finally mixed, I pinched my tummy and handed the needle over to hubs to his surprise. He looked at me like a deer in headlights! Apparently he missed the memo that I was going to make HIM give me the shots. After the shot I was examining the contents of the syringe and noticed hubs didn't inject it all! He grabbed the syringe from me to prove that he did in fact inject all the medication and ended up shooting a bunch of medicine all over our bathroom. Ugh....oh well most of it got in me. It was more comical than anything because hubs was freaking out. He was still apologizing this morning thinking that this was drastically going to alter how my ovaries respond :) All in all he did a wonderful job and only a tiny bruise was left as evidence. This is just going to keep getting more fun as we add more/different medications as we go along.
I also created a checklist of things I have completed and still need to complete in preparation for IVF:
Completed:
1. Apply for FMLA so that I don't get fired.
2. Schedule a second nurse consult
3. Sign consents
4. Organize all of the medication & check that I received everything.
5. Send insurance a letter of certification (even though it is not needed since I have met all requirements)
6. Provide a frozen sample to RE just in case
7. Buy lots of G2 and pedialyte
8. Cook meals ahead of time and freeze (lasagna and beef & potato stew)
Still need to complete:
1. Spreadsheet listing out all medication I am supposed to take and when (this was an idea recommended by a friend who has gone through this)
2. Follow up with HR to make sure FMLA paperwork is completed by my doctor
3. List of movies I want hubs to pick up for me for days after retrieval and transfer
4. Pick up a couple of books (anyone have any ideas?)
5. Schedule acupuncture appointments
I am sure I am missing some things but I will just wing it when the time is near. I mean I have had so many surgeries and procedures in the last year and half that hopefully this will all be a piece of cake....except I am going to be a nervous wreck!!! Again, thank you all for your continued support! It means everything to me.
I took a picture picture of all of my meds.... believe it or not this does not include the meds that I have organized already in my bathroom.
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
In With the New...Out with the Old
Tonight is the Resolve meeting. I can't even explain how excited I get that I have the opportunity to be able to sit around women who are like me and who understand me. The biggest disappointment going through the past year and half has been the lack of support, understanding, or the fact that just many of my friends have children now so they are "too busy" to talk to me or spend time with me. The surgeries, disappointments, miscarriages, loneliness, anger, and sadness...I have really truly only gone through with the support of my husband, my parents, and friends I have met through support groups...that's it. It has been my choice to remain silent with most of my friends and other family members regarding everything, but that doesn't mean that I don't want to ever be invited to anything or spend time with them. I have become distant to many people whom I considered myself close with (don't worry none of these close friends know of my blog). To the best friend whom I stayed up until midnight wrapping baby shower gifts for, crying, all the while I was hemorrhaging from a miscarriage...I forgive you for excluding me from your life these days... to the friend who all of a sudden doesn't have time to call me because they are now pregnant again and feel uncomfortable talking to me....I get it. I don't hate you. I am disappointed and saddened by them...but I get it. They won't be able to fully understand me because...well, they haven't been around me much recently. I don't blame them and others for not wanting anything to do with me, I just wish I could have counted on them.
But then again, there are so many people that I never thought I had anything in common with or maybe never gave a chance to who are becoming my closest confidants. It has been quite the reshuffling of people who make up my social circle these days. To those of you who have stood by me...some of whom I haven't even personally met, thank you. To my coworker who has become one of my closest friends and literally got choked up after overhearing one of the calls from my doctor and just turned to me with a certain level of understanding and respect and said she couldn't believe how bad it was...thank you. To my friend whom I met on a babycenter support group that I finally got to meet in person and often attend meetings with...thank you. To those that follow my blog and send me well wishes even though I know you are going through your own personal hell...thank you. And to my husband and parents, they have no idea how much I have appreciated having someone to lean so heavily on. I would only be a shell of myself without them. And thank you to Resolve for bringing together a group of women who share an understanding...I always walk out of a meeting with my head a little higher and the hope a little stronger.
But then again, there are so many people that I never thought I had anything in common with or maybe never gave a chance to who are becoming my closest confidants. It has been quite the reshuffling of people who make up my social circle these days. To those of you who have stood by me...some of whom I haven't even personally met, thank you. To my coworker who has become one of my closest friends and literally got choked up after overhearing one of the calls from my doctor and just turned to me with a certain level of understanding and respect and said she couldn't believe how bad it was...thank you. To my friend whom I met on a babycenter support group that I finally got to meet in person and often attend meetings with...thank you. To those that follow my blog and send me well wishes even though I know you are going through your own personal hell...thank you. And to my husband and parents, they have no idea how much I have appreciated having someone to lean so heavily on. I would only be a shell of myself without them. And thank you to Resolve for bringing together a group of women who share an understanding...I always walk out of a meeting with my head a little higher and the hope a little stronger.
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
The Time is Finally Here
I have had so many emotions while dealing with infertility. I think for me the disappointment month after month and the patience that is involved is the worse. I try not to get too hopeful because I feel that everytime I do, something unexpectedly goes wrong. For those that do read my blog, you know that I have been dealing with a cyst that I developed while on birth control before IVF. The funniest thing is that my estrogen level was at 571 which is higher than any level I ever achieved during IUI...and the kicker again was the fact that this was while on birth control...when I was supposed to be suppressed.
After being on lupron for two weeks AF decided to arrive. It was horrible. I will not get into details about how awful and painful this AF was. However, at one point I did think I was going to die (don't laugh) and called the on-call doctor in the middle of the night. He explained this was all probably due to the high estrogen producing cyst that the lupron was causing to collapse. I decided to not go to the ER and just spend the night in the restroom. I took the next day off of work because I was so weak and still dealing with the pain. Enough is enough...I went in for my baseline today instead of Wednesday because I just had to know what was going on and how much time I had left to live.
Expecting the worse possible news today that perhaps our IVF cycle was going to be cancelled and that I was in fact bleeding to death, I trudged my way into the clinic with my double duty diaper on and everything. I had my favorite ultrasound tech which cheered me up a bit. She did notice something within my uterine wall but since it was not in my cavity she didn't seem overly concerned (maybe a new fibroid?). I did in fact ask her if it was a tumor for which she chuckled and said "no" (did I say that I am a bit dramatic). My cyst had indeed collapsed and went from 28 mm to 8.5mm in a week! There was no solid answer on why I was having the period from hell, but I figure that as long as I am not dying then I can concentrate on what lies ahead...which happened to be a big fat cupcake for breakfast. Hey, my blood sugar was low!
So anyhoo....
This is the first month where all of my numbers look great! And I am actually not joking around.
Intrafollicular count: 24! Did I mention I have PCOS :)
LH: .92 (might be a little low, but I am on lupron for down-regulation)
FSH: 3.41
Estrogen: 34.8
lining: 5.3 mm
The plan...continue lupron for two more days to shrink the cyst even more and then begin stims 10/9/11. I can't believe I am this close to having IVF. I am almost numb. I have to believe that this will work or that I will at least get enough embies to freeze. I have to believe because I need something to change in my favor. I just want this one thing to go my way.
After being on lupron for two weeks AF decided to arrive. It was horrible. I will not get into details about how awful and painful this AF was. However, at one point I did think I was going to die (don't laugh) and called the on-call doctor in the middle of the night. He explained this was all probably due to the high estrogen producing cyst that the lupron was causing to collapse. I decided to not go to the ER and just spend the night in the restroom. I took the next day off of work because I was so weak and still dealing with the pain. Enough is enough...I went in for my baseline today instead of Wednesday because I just had to know what was going on and how much time I had left to live.
Expecting the worse possible news today that perhaps our IVF cycle was going to be cancelled and that I was in fact bleeding to death, I trudged my way into the clinic with my double duty diaper on and everything. I had my favorite ultrasound tech which cheered me up a bit. She did notice something within my uterine wall but since it was not in my cavity she didn't seem overly concerned (maybe a new fibroid?). I did in fact ask her if it was a tumor for which she chuckled and said "no" (did I say that I am a bit dramatic). My cyst had indeed collapsed and went from 28 mm to 8.5mm in a week! There was no solid answer on why I was having the period from hell, but I figure that as long as I am not dying then I can concentrate on what lies ahead...which happened to be a big fat cupcake for breakfast. Hey, my blood sugar was low!
So anyhoo....
This is the first month where all of my numbers look great! And I am actually not joking around.
Intrafollicular count: 24! Did I mention I have PCOS :)
LH: .92 (might be a little low, but I am on lupron for down-regulation)
FSH: 3.41
Estrogen: 34.8
lining: 5.3 mm
The plan...continue lupron for two more days to shrink the cyst even more and then begin stims 10/9/11. I can't believe I am this close to having IVF. I am almost numb. I have to believe that this will work or that I will at least get enough embies to freeze. I have to believe because I need something to change in my favor. I just want this one thing to go my way.
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