What a week! Before I post, please continue to pray for my friend. It sounds as if she is doing better, but she will be in the hospital for a while and still has many obstacles to overcome.
16 Weeks
Weight gain: Still at 4 pounds. I am okay with that.
Baby bump: No bump but I now have to safety pin my pants. Oh, one of my lovely fibroids has decided to surface causing a big lump on my left side. It's so hot.
Maternity clothes: Not yet.
Symptoms: Honestly I have felt really great this week. Again, the fibroid on my left side causes some pressure, but nothing too alarming. Hopefully it stays that way.
Milestone: I received my first baby gift :). My mom shipped me a hand made baby quilt (gender neutral) that is absolutely adorable! I will post a pic later tonight.
Things to look forward to: We have our gender scan this weekend. We have not decided when we will share the news on whether our baby "it" is a he or she. I guess we have to tell people that we are pregnant first! I plan on telling my close friends that we are expecting on Sunday and my coworkers on Monday. My coworkers are going to hate me due to me taking three months of maternity leave, especially during a quarter-end, and during the summer. Lucky me...not so lucky for my coworkers :). Nobody in my group has kids so this will be a first. Therefore, I am bringing in cupcakes to soften the blow.
Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Where is my brain?
I am going to start this post out by saying that yesterday was a hard day. One of my good friends is in the hospital with complications in her pregnancy. She has just began her second trimester. She will be in the hospital for a while, and I hope everyone can pray for her and for her babies. It is a constant reminder to me that us infertiles or those that have suffered losses never feel safe.
So anyways, I was a little frazzled dealing with some urgent family matters with my husband's side of the family along with the news of my friend, so my head just really wasn't in the right place.
First, I entirely blew off a meeting at work. It was on my calender and the reminder even popped up. I even remember clicking the "dismiss" on the reminder, but for some reason I didn't pay attention. I have no idea how I missed this. I wasn't even busy. I was on the Internet reading about crib safety! I mean what excuse was I supposed to tell my boss?!
Second, it was a busy day and so I offered to help out another coworker. After telling my coworker I would take some of his accounts, I then walked back to my desk, began surfing the Internet and texting with my friend, and I completely forgot to do my coworkers work that I promised I would do. It was so embarrassing!
Lastly, I was walking to the subway after work and had to take a detour to find a public restroom. I have been chugging water lately and even though I went pee before I left, it took a whole four minutes later on my walk to the train before I had to go again! So I was in this new mall thingy called Block 37 in downtown Chicago wandering around like an idiot trying to find a bathroom. I finally found one (by the way...pregnant lady + oversized, bulky down puffer coat + trying to take a tinkle = entertainment) and then tried to figure out how the heck to get out of the building to the subway. Needless to say this was not my normal route. All was well and I get on the subway. After a couple of stops I noticed that the train was fairly empty. This was strange because usually it gets more and more packed. At the next stop I noticed that I was going the wrong flipping way! I was somewhere on the south side of Chicago when I needed to be going to the north side. This happened one other time, but I was new to the city and didn't know which direction was which. There is no excuse this time...no excuse.
So ladies...I have heard of the term "pregnancy brain". I am not sure if I should be diagnosed with such, but it does appear to fit the above situations. Too bad we can't receive disability for this? I mean, I hope I don't become a hazard to my job or self. Best case scenario, hopefully I don't get fired from my job or lost in the city. There is no telling where I may end up.
So anyways, I was a little frazzled dealing with some urgent family matters with my husband's side of the family along with the news of my friend, so my head just really wasn't in the right place.
First, I entirely blew off a meeting at work. It was on my calender and the reminder even popped up. I even remember clicking the "dismiss" on the reminder, but for some reason I didn't pay attention. I have no idea how I missed this. I wasn't even busy. I was on the Internet reading about crib safety! I mean what excuse was I supposed to tell my boss?!
Second, it was a busy day and so I offered to help out another coworker. After telling my coworker I would take some of his accounts, I then walked back to my desk, began surfing the Internet and texting with my friend, and I completely forgot to do my coworkers work that I promised I would do. It was so embarrassing!
Lastly, I was walking to the subway after work and had to take a detour to find a public restroom. I have been chugging water lately and even though I went pee before I left, it took a whole four minutes later on my walk to the train before I had to go again! So I was in this new mall thingy called Block 37 in downtown Chicago wandering around like an idiot trying to find a bathroom. I finally found one (by the way...pregnant lady + oversized, bulky down puffer coat + trying to take a tinkle = entertainment) and then tried to figure out how the heck to get out of the building to the subway. Needless to say this was not my normal route. All was well and I get on the subway. After a couple of stops I noticed that the train was fairly empty. This was strange because usually it gets more and more packed. At the next stop I noticed that I was going the wrong flipping way! I was somewhere on the south side of Chicago when I needed to be going to the north side. This happened one other time, but I was new to the city and didn't know which direction was which. There is no excuse this time...no excuse.
So ladies...I have heard of the term "pregnancy brain". I am not sure if I should be diagnosed with such, but it does appear to fit the above situations. Too bad we can't receive disability for this? I mean, I hope I don't become a hazard to my job or self. Best case scenario, hopefully I don't get fired from my job or lost in the city. There is no telling where I may end up.
Thursday, January 19, 2012
15 Weeks
I had a very lovely dinner with the Resolve ladies last night. It is so nice to see familiar faces and to get hugs from the ladies and encouraging words from those whom I don't feel like I need to explain anything too. I also received some wonderful tips from breast feeding to what I should be eating right now. I am so lucky that a group has been created in my area for those suffering from infertility that are now expecting. It is a tough place to be because you don't really feel as if you fit anywhere. Most pregnant women don't understand, but it is also not right to ask for support from those that may still be in that dark, unknown hell while TTC. Anyways, back to my post....
15 Weeks:
Weight Gain: 4 pounds (probably from those damn chocolate cupcakes I intended to bring into work but never did)
Baby bump: Not sure if what I have is qualified as a small bump. I just look like I have eaten too many cupcakes...which I have.
Maternity clothes: Not yet
Symptoms: Nosebleeds, stuffy nose, and constant feeling of having to pee
Milestones: My first adventure into a baby store. I have also been given clearance to work out again. No running (sad), but I am allowed to do a low impact workout and gradually increase my activity over time.
Things to look forward too: Researching ideas for the nursery. Gender scan countdown has begun...10 days left.
Dr.'s Followup: I also had an OB appointment Wednesday. I was checked for a bladder infection due to the constant need to pee. However, upon further discovery, it appears as if my uterus has not flipped due to my fibroid. Usually if you have a retroverted uterus it will flip before week 14. However, my fibroid is so large and heavy that it is causing my uterus to not cooperate. As long as I can continue to go to the bathroom (both ways if you know what I mean), then it should not cause a problem. If it does cause an issue, my OB will have to manually flip me, and I may need a catheter for some time. By all means this does not sound like a pleasant experience! I have a follow up in 3 weeks for a cervical check as well since my uterus is measuring 22 weeks. This means that when my uterus does flip, I will basically look like I am carrying twins. Thank you Mr. Fibroid.
15 Weeks:
Weight Gain: 4 pounds (probably from those damn chocolate cupcakes I intended to bring into work but never did)
Baby bump: Not sure if what I have is qualified as a small bump. I just look like I have eaten too many cupcakes...which I have.
Maternity clothes: Not yet
Symptoms: Nosebleeds, stuffy nose, and constant feeling of having to pee
Milestones: My first adventure into a baby store. I have also been given clearance to work out again. No running (sad), but I am allowed to do a low impact workout and gradually increase my activity over time.
Things to look forward too: Researching ideas for the nursery. Gender scan countdown has begun...10 days left.
Dr.'s Followup: I also had an OB appointment Wednesday. I was checked for a bladder infection due to the constant need to pee. However, upon further discovery, it appears as if my uterus has not flipped due to my fibroid. Usually if you have a retroverted uterus it will flip before week 14. However, my fibroid is so large and heavy that it is causing my uterus to not cooperate. As long as I can continue to go to the bathroom (both ways if you know what I mean), then it should not cause a problem. If it does cause an issue, my OB will have to manually flip me, and I may need a catheter for some time. By all means this does not sound like a pleasant experience! I have a follow up in 3 weeks for a cervical check as well since my uterus is measuring 22 weeks. This means that when my uterus does flip, I will basically look like I am carrying twins. Thank you Mr. Fibroid.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
What are YOU doing here?!
I have been so busy with work so haven't been able to post! Thank you for the comments and emails from my last post. To follow up 1) my mom called me this weekend and basically kissed my behind. I think she feels bad about what she said, so I am just going to let it go. She is my mom and I love her. 2) Regarding my friend issue, one of you emailed me and pretty much were right on point. The caddy and cliquish behavior became boring in high school. Why would I want to be part of that? Done...over. Wish I had closure, but you don't always get what you want. Tough shit.
So, I have quite an interesting story from this weekend. First, I have done absolutely no shopping for the baby. A matter of fact, I had not even looked online for ideas or anything. Since I had such an abundance of energy this weekend (thank you 2nd trimester!) I decided to do some research on nursery items, primarily furniture. The hubs and I decided to go to the closest "Pea and the Pod" to browse. I was terrified of this outing because I did not want to bump into anyone.
We did not even make it through the front door before hearing "What are YOU guys doing here?!". Seriously, what are the chances I would actually see somebody I know...and out of all people it was our downstairs neighbors. Lord! After looking like a deer in headlights and much stammering, I managed to blab that I am 14 weeks, that this was our first shopping excursion, and I was terrified of seeing someone because we haven't told anyone. This seemed to confuse our neighbors seeing as she is 11 weeks and they have told almost everyone and they have already done a ton of shopping. So naturally I felt I had to explain myself and told her my quick back story. They seemed very surprised seeing that I practically see/talk to these people everyday and they had no idea the long, complicated, and often depressing journey we endured. It actually felt refreshing to get it off my chest.
So, to sum it up our neighbors who we are friends with are expecting their first baby as well. She is three weeks behind me. It will be nice to experience this journey together. We are planning on getting together for dinner to celebrate. It is also nice to know that hubs and I will not be the only ones pissing off all the rest of our neighbors with a crying baby (we live in a small condo building consisting of six condos, five couples, a single drunk dude, two dogs, and zero children...as of now). Our neighbors also made a good point...a nanny share. I have never thought of this before because I always wondered how you find someone to share a nanny with. Well, this may be our solution.
I will post a weekly update later this week after my doctor's appointment. I hope everyone is doing well!
So, I have quite an interesting story from this weekend. First, I have done absolutely no shopping for the baby. A matter of fact, I had not even looked online for ideas or anything. Since I had such an abundance of energy this weekend (thank you 2nd trimester!) I decided to do some research on nursery items, primarily furniture. The hubs and I decided to go to the closest "Pea and the Pod" to browse. I was terrified of this outing because I did not want to bump into anyone.
We did not even make it through the front door before hearing "What are YOU guys doing here?!". Seriously, what are the chances I would actually see somebody I know...and out of all people it was our downstairs neighbors. Lord! After looking like a deer in headlights and much stammering, I managed to blab that I am 14 weeks, that this was our first shopping excursion, and I was terrified of seeing someone because we haven't told anyone. This seemed to confuse our neighbors seeing as she is 11 weeks and they have told almost everyone and they have already done a ton of shopping. So naturally I felt I had to explain myself and told her my quick back story. They seemed very surprised seeing that I practically see/talk to these people everyday and they had no idea the long, complicated, and often depressing journey we endured. It actually felt refreshing to get it off my chest.
So, to sum it up our neighbors who we are friends with are expecting their first baby as well. She is three weeks behind me. It will be nice to experience this journey together. We are planning on getting together for dinner to celebrate. It is also nice to know that hubs and I will not be the only ones pissing off all the rest of our neighbors with a crying baby (we live in a small condo building consisting of six condos, five couples, a single drunk dude, two dogs, and zero children...as of now). Our neighbors also made a good point...a nanny share. I have never thought of this before because I always wondered how you find someone to share a nanny with. Well, this may be our solution.
I will post a weekly update later this week after my doctor's appointment. I hope everyone is doing well!
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Resentment
Well ladies, I don't usually do this but I may actually be asking for some advice. I have kept this blog private from my friends and family on purpose. Because of that, I have the advantage of talking about them without hurting their feelings. Anyways, I don't know if anyone actually reads my blog or will even comment...but hey...maybe just writing down how upset I am will make me feel better. I have read similar posts and heard similar stories during my Resolve meetings (especially about my "friend" issue) so I can't possibly be the only one that has ever experiences this. So, be prepared for this psychological purging of emotions I am about to share :)
Issue # 1
My RE put me on a daily baby aspirin regime ever since I tested positive for MTHFR (compound hetero- one bad copy of each gene). I was to continue this regime to prevent blood clots along with taking perscription prenatals in order for my body to be able to absorb folic acid. I was to stop the baby aspirin at 30 weeks if I became pregnant, and then begin back up 2 weeks after delivery. There have not been alot of studies on MTHFR and there are many different theories regarding the treatment. With that being said, my RE thought better to be safe than sorry. Baby aspirin and extra folic acid will not hurt. My OB on the otherhand wants me to stop taking the baby aspirin at 13 weeks. He was also unfamiliar with MTHFR. Since my 13 week doctor appointment was cancelled with him, I am waiting on a phone call still so I can discuss this further with him.
My mother is a medical technologist at a hospital and works directly with hematologists. She has taken it upon herself to tell the hematologist about my pregnancy and that I am taking baby aspirin. I received a phone call from my crazy mother telling me that she doesn't think I should be taking the baby aspirin because it will cause a brain hemorrhage in the baby thus killing it. I am not kidding...this is the conversation I had with my mom. This hematologist is from freaking Kansas, has never met me, does not know my history, and probably hasn't even heard of MTHFR. I was so upset that I told my mom she had no right to inform me of this. I trust my RE and will get another opinion from an OB if mine still argues with me regarding the baby aspirin.
I am so resentful that my mother would even get in my business when she has no idea what she is talking about. I never asked her for her opinion. I am so upset with her and can't even bring myself to talk to her at the moment. For you IFers, are you taking baby aspirin for a blood clotting disorder or MTHFR? If so, when did you stop taking it?
Issue # 2
I have a friend that lives in Chicago who I have been friends with for 12 years. We met in college, became college roommates, then coworkers, and always very good friends. Our lives always seem to bring us together. She moved to Chicago a month after I did. Anyways, long story short...we don't talk anymore. I suffered my first loss halfway through her first pregnancy. I suffered my second loss a couple of days before her small Chicago baby shower that me and another friend put on, and actually passed everything (meaning the remains of a sac/embryo) the night before. I suffered my third loss a couple months after she gave birth to her daughter. Needless to say, I could not bring myself to meet her baby until her baby was six months old. She was the only friend I even told about my miscarriages because I felt like I needed to explain myself, not really because I even wanted to. After all, I didn't tell anyone.
After I finally met her baby, I was fine. I was so scared prior to meeting her child because I was not sure how I would handle it. I didn't want to breakdown. Once I realized that I could be "normal" around her baby and not an emotional mess, I thought perfect...things could be like they were...just +1. That is not how they turned out. I think that my friend felt frustrated because she knew my struggles to conceive, but I never wanted to talk to her about it. I just wanted a friend that I could hang out with and be "normal" with and NOT talk about my struggles. I mean my whole life revolved around my struggle to conceive. I think that is why I enjoyed work so much because I could just feel "normal" and nobody knew what I was going through and it was if my struggles to conceive didn't exist.
I quickly realized that she had time for her other friends, but not me. That was fine. I honestly thought to myself "I deserve this" "why would she want to hang out with me, I am pathetic". Those feelings of self-loathing soon turned into pure hurt and anger. To top it off, a bunch of mutual friends that we met in college were coming up to visit my friend along with another girl who we know in Chicago as well. I learned that everyone was going to get together and go to dinner, etc. Nobody told me about it. I was completely left out on purpose. These are friends that I have known for years and haven't seen in quite a while. I live TEN minutes away and nobody thought to invite me or tell me about it. I felt as if I was being punished for going through a difficult time. This all happened the month before my IVF. It was one of the hardest months that I have gone through.
In that moment, I quickly realized that I thought of her as a much better friend than she thought of me. I decided to tell her how I was feeling. She explained to me she thought it would make me uncomfortable since her child would be there...you know the child I have already met. Her excuse made NO sense to me and pissed me off more. The fact is either 1) she just didn't want me there, or 2) she felt uncomfortable. Either way it was a pretty shitty thing to do. I felt she was extremely selfish. I just needed a friend! I have never even had a conversation with her about all the uncomfortable things I have gone through to even make her feel uncomfortable! The worse part is that she is not a mean person. So why has she been such a shitty person to me? Why did I deserve this? I think back to when her step-dad passed before her wedding, I can't possible imagine treating her the way she has treated me. I couldn't imagine treating anyone that way. So, the hubs along with another dear friend think I should just let it go...time heals all wounds right? I am much better without, right? It is just hard for me to do that though, but any communication would just be awkward now. I guess I am asking, how do I get over this? I know I have read similar experiences, I just wish I could have remembered the outcome of what I read?
Anyways, that was a lot of blabbing, but I warned you ahead of time. I can't help it...I am emotion today! I promise to follow up with a more light-hearted post later this week for my 14 week update!
Anyways, all this happened four months ago. I have things to finally be happy about, but that doesn't mean that I still don't think about it. I just want to get over it. But how? You would think after four months I would be less resentful, but I am not.
Issue # 1
My RE put me on a daily baby aspirin regime ever since I tested positive for MTHFR (compound hetero- one bad copy of each gene). I was to continue this regime to prevent blood clots along with taking perscription prenatals in order for my body to be able to absorb folic acid. I was to stop the baby aspirin at 30 weeks if I became pregnant, and then begin back up 2 weeks after delivery. There have not been alot of studies on MTHFR and there are many different theories regarding the treatment. With that being said, my RE thought better to be safe than sorry. Baby aspirin and extra folic acid will not hurt. My OB on the otherhand wants me to stop taking the baby aspirin at 13 weeks. He was also unfamiliar with MTHFR. Since my 13 week doctor appointment was cancelled with him, I am waiting on a phone call still so I can discuss this further with him.
My mother is a medical technologist at a hospital and works directly with hematologists. She has taken it upon herself to tell the hematologist about my pregnancy and that I am taking baby aspirin. I received a phone call from my crazy mother telling me that she doesn't think I should be taking the baby aspirin because it will cause a brain hemorrhage in the baby thus killing it. I am not kidding...this is the conversation I had with my mom. This hematologist is from freaking Kansas, has never met me, does not know my history, and probably hasn't even heard of MTHFR. I was so upset that I told my mom she had no right to inform me of this. I trust my RE and will get another opinion from an OB if mine still argues with me regarding the baby aspirin.
I am so resentful that my mother would even get in my business when she has no idea what she is talking about. I never asked her for her opinion. I am so upset with her and can't even bring myself to talk to her at the moment. For you IFers, are you taking baby aspirin for a blood clotting disorder or MTHFR? If so, when did you stop taking it?
Issue # 2
I have a friend that lives in Chicago who I have been friends with for 12 years. We met in college, became college roommates, then coworkers, and always very good friends. Our lives always seem to bring us together. She moved to Chicago a month after I did. Anyways, long story short...we don't talk anymore. I suffered my first loss halfway through her first pregnancy. I suffered my second loss a couple of days before her small Chicago baby shower that me and another friend put on, and actually passed everything (meaning the remains of a sac/embryo) the night before. I suffered my third loss a couple months after she gave birth to her daughter. Needless to say, I could not bring myself to meet her baby until her baby was six months old. She was the only friend I even told about my miscarriages because I felt like I needed to explain myself, not really because I even wanted to. After all, I didn't tell anyone.
After I finally met her baby, I was fine. I was so scared prior to meeting her child because I was not sure how I would handle it. I didn't want to breakdown. Once I realized that I could be "normal" around her baby and not an emotional mess, I thought perfect...things could be like they were...just +1. That is not how they turned out. I think that my friend felt frustrated because she knew my struggles to conceive, but I never wanted to talk to her about it. I just wanted a friend that I could hang out with and be "normal" with and NOT talk about my struggles. I mean my whole life revolved around my struggle to conceive. I think that is why I enjoyed work so much because I could just feel "normal" and nobody knew what I was going through and it was if my struggles to conceive didn't exist.
I quickly realized that she had time for her other friends, but not me. That was fine. I honestly thought to myself "I deserve this" "why would she want to hang out with me, I am pathetic". Those feelings of self-loathing soon turned into pure hurt and anger. To top it off, a bunch of mutual friends that we met in college were coming up to visit my friend along with another girl who we know in Chicago as well. I learned that everyone was going to get together and go to dinner, etc. Nobody told me about it. I was completely left out on purpose. These are friends that I have known for years and haven't seen in quite a while. I live TEN minutes away and nobody thought to invite me or tell me about it. I felt as if I was being punished for going through a difficult time. This all happened the month before my IVF. It was one of the hardest months that I have gone through.
In that moment, I quickly realized that I thought of her as a much better friend than she thought of me. I decided to tell her how I was feeling. She explained to me she thought it would make me uncomfortable since her child would be there...you know the child I have already met. Her excuse made NO sense to me and pissed me off more. The fact is either 1) she just didn't want me there, or 2) she felt uncomfortable. Either way it was a pretty shitty thing to do. I felt she was extremely selfish. I just needed a friend! I have never even had a conversation with her about all the uncomfortable things I have gone through to even make her feel uncomfortable! The worse part is that she is not a mean person. So why has she been such a shitty person to me? Why did I deserve this? I think back to when her step-dad passed before her wedding, I can't possible imagine treating her the way she has treated me. I couldn't imagine treating anyone that way. So, the hubs along with another dear friend think I should just let it go...time heals all wounds right? I am much better without, right? It is just hard for me to do that though, but any communication would just be awkward now. I guess I am asking, how do I get over this? I know I have read similar experiences, I just wish I could have remembered the outcome of what I read?
Anyways, that was a lot of blabbing, but I warned you ahead of time. I can't help it...I am emotion today! I promise to follow up with a more light-hearted post later this week for my 14 week update!
Anyways, all this happened four months ago. I have things to finally be happy about, but that doesn't mean that I still don't think about it. I just want to get over it. But how? You would think after four months I would be less resentful, but I am not.
Friday, January 6, 2012
13 Weeks
Yesterday we had the nerve wracking NT scan. All was well. Baby was measuring at 13W5D. My OB office goes off the highest of the three NT measurements which for me was 2mm (the others were around 1.5mm). They said this was very good because the average thickness at 13W in a normal pregnancy is 2.18mm and at 13W6D is 2.8mm. Anything above 2.8mm would have increased the odds for Downs. We also saw a nasal bone forming. I am just waiting on my blood results, but by just looking at the U/S I was told to go ahead and schedule my 20 week appointment thus forgoing an amnio.
The hubs and I got a giggle during the U/S. The baby was flying from one end of the sac to the other every time the tech poked it. It would not stop kicking and waving. We even got to see a yawn :) On a side note: I at times do refer to our baby as "it". I apologize if I offend anyone by doing this. The fact is that it is not really a baby yet and we don't know the sex. So, I guess I could call it "fetus" or "parasite", but "it" is just easier. I had a friend who got snippy once when I called her baby "it" (they chose to not find out the sex). Honestly, I think some women just need to chill the fuck out when it comes to those things, but that is my opinion. Seriously some of us have other things to worry about like my fibroids degenerating and causing preterm labor, or perhaps suffering another loss. Worrying about what to call "it" just seems trivial to me. So again, sorry if I offend anyone but I will probably call my baby "it" until I find out the sex. (getting off of my soapbox now)
I decided to start a short overview about my pregnancy that I will try and update weekly. Mainly for my benefit I guess.
How far along: 13 weeks, measuring 13 weeks 5 days
Weight gain: 1 pound.
Baby bump: No bump but tummy is getting harder if that counts. Wearing my regular clothes just fine but I feel like I have gained 20 pounds.
Symptoms: headaches everyday, pressure in the abdomen, sleepy, still suffering from occasional sickness
Milestones: NT scan went well. I am out of the first trimester according to my OB...something I truly thought was never possible for me.
Things to look forward to: gender scan in 3 weeks, being able to spill the beans to my friends and other family members soon. Seeing my Resolve friends in a couple of weeks.
I have been following all of my buddies often. Some of you just had babies so congrats. There have also been several success stories lately! Yay! Those that email me, please continue to do so! Others are starting treatment again so I am sending positive thoughts your way.
The hubs and I got a giggle during the U/S. The baby was flying from one end of the sac to the other every time the tech poked it. It would not stop kicking and waving. We even got to see a yawn :) On a side note: I at times do refer to our baby as "it". I apologize if I offend anyone by doing this. The fact is that it is not really a baby yet and we don't know the sex. So, I guess I could call it "fetus" or "parasite", but "it" is just easier. I had a friend who got snippy once when I called her baby "it" (they chose to not find out the sex). Honestly, I think some women just need to chill the fuck out when it comes to those things, but that is my opinion. Seriously some of us have other things to worry about like my fibroids degenerating and causing preterm labor, or perhaps suffering another loss. Worrying about what to call "it" just seems trivial to me. So again, sorry if I offend anyone but I will probably call my baby "it" until I find out the sex. (getting off of my soapbox now)
I decided to start a short overview about my pregnancy that I will try and update weekly. Mainly for my benefit I guess.
How far along: 13 weeks, measuring 13 weeks 5 days
Weight gain: 1 pound.
Baby bump: No bump but tummy is getting harder if that counts. Wearing my regular clothes just fine but I feel like I have gained 20 pounds.
Symptoms: headaches everyday, pressure in the abdomen, sleepy, still suffering from occasional sickness
Milestones: NT scan went well. I am out of the first trimester according to my OB...something I truly thought was never possible for me.
Things to look forward to: gender scan in 3 weeks, being able to spill the beans to my friends and other family members soon. Seeing my Resolve friends in a couple of weeks.
I have been following all of my buddies often. Some of you just had babies so congrats. There have also been several success stories lately! Yay! Those that email me, please continue to do so! Others are starting treatment again so I am sending positive thoughts your way.
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