Overwhelmed

Today is CD1 for me.  I just finished with a quick consult over the phone regarding my IUI this month.  Apparently I am quite ignorant.  For some reason I thought I was going to have to take one pill by month (similar to BC) and then have to go in around the time I will ovulate and they will use a turkey baster type thing and try and impregnate me. I've seen it done on TV with cows.  No big deal I can do that!  I did not know I would be having to take three different medications and I will need a sharps container?  I am doing a non-injectable cycle so why did the pharmacy tell me to go online and check out video on how to give injections?  I am so confused.  I guess I will have to ask questions at my monitoring appointment on Tuesday. I also worry that these fertility drugs will make me more predisposed to ovarian cancer.  My mother is an ovarian cancer survivor and I in no way want to go through what she did.

I am also for some reason extremely moody.  I pretty much dislike everyone and everything today.  I think I am just overwhelmed and I hope that I am not moving forward too fast.  I really did enjoy the last two months of not having to think about all this fertility crap.  It feels like it will never end....but yet it is really only the beginning.  AGHHH!  Seriously can't wait for acupuncture tomorrow.

Update: the second opinion with a different RE was good but confused me more.  You could tell both RE's came from two entirely different perspectives and probably wouldn't get along if placed in the same room with one another.  The second opinion RE wanted me to get an endometrium biopsy which I am just not willing to do at this moment after just having a lap done.  Glad I went but sticking with FCI.  They have been wonderful with me thus far so I have no reason to go another direction.  All I want is a flipping baby!!! Why is this so hard for me!